Thursday, December 31, 2009
New Year's Eve
Tonight, I will ring in the year with a smile. I may not yet know what the smile is for, it may not even mean anything at all, but a smile will be there sitting on my face like a pretty dancing butterfly.
When our various clocks and watches give out the telltale ring of a new year, I will stand ready to loosen the binds of past sins and past wrongs and a hundred other things that once laid blame upon my feet. I will understand that I have extracted my lessons from my mistakes, and there is no longer any reason to carry my guilt over my shoulder, like a weight that threatens to crush me.
I will accept the changes that will come, for they are inevitable and that is all I can do.
I will be strong.
I will be who I am and who I want to be, regardless of the cacophony of voices that may nag at my ear. Let them find other ears to confuse and distract. Let them find other minds in which to dwell. I have my own voices, and they are enough.
If love comes my way, then I will love completely. I will love with all of me, with everything I have. I will fall without fear, without reservation. I will endeavor to love without ifs or buts, with eyes wide open, with him "as is".
This year, should love come, I will love without looking to forever, without promise of happy endings, but I will love with all of me, with all the space of the moment, for I know that for now, that is all that is within me to give. If love comes, he will not find me unwilling, but this year, I will not be chasing him down through the nooks and crannies of my life. I have done enough chasing in the past. This year, he will have to find me. I am worth the effort, after all, and while I like the chase too, this year, I will see about being a prize.
(And if by some grand design, I am left unfound and unclaimed, then so be it. For one year at least, I can keep me to myself.)
I will make my way in the world the best I know how: with pasion, with an open mind, with a lust for learning and adventure. I will let my own spirit take me where it will. I will ride every wave that comes to my shore. I will fly as far as I am able. I will not be afraid to lose my way, as long as I never lose myself. I will not live in fear of defeat, or change, or failure. I will not hold back. I will unwrap my courage, and wield it like a sword.
This year, I will live life solely for me. This year, I will unravel my soul as much as I am able. This year, I start anew.
This year, I will be my own oracle of what is to come, and I promise highs and lows and love and laughter and even my share of tears. But in the end, they will all have their place, and they will all be good things.
Here's to 2010. May it see me be better than I ever was.
When our various clocks and watches give out the telltale ring of a new year, I will stand ready to loosen the binds of past sins and past wrongs and a hundred other things that once laid blame upon my feet. I will understand that I have extracted my lessons from my mistakes, and there is no longer any reason to carry my guilt over my shoulder, like a weight that threatens to crush me.
I will accept the changes that will come, for they are inevitable and that is all I can do.
I will be strong.
I will be who I am and who I want to be, regardless of the cacophony of voices that may nag at my ear. Let them find other ears to confuse and distract. Let them find other minds in which to dwell. I have my own voices, and they are enough.
If love comes my way, then I will love completely. I will love with all of me, with everything I have. I will fall without fear, without reservation. I will endeavor to love without ifs or buts, with eyes wide open, with him "as is".
This year, should love come, I will love without looking to forever, without promise of happy endings, but I will love with all of me, with all the space of the moment, for I know that for now, that is all that is within me to give. If love comes, he will not find me unwilling, but this year, I will not be chasing him down through the nooks and crannies of my life. I have done enough chasing in the past. This year, he will have to find me. I am worth the effort, after all, and while I like the chase too, this year, I will see about being a prize.
(And if by some grand design, I am left unfound and unclaimed, then so be it. For one year at least, I can keep me to myself.)
I will make my way in the world the best I know how: with pasion, with an open mind, with a lust for learning and adventure. I will let my own spirit take me where it will. I will ride every wave that comes to my shore. I will fly as far as I am able. I will not be afraid to lose my way, as long as I never lose myself. I will not live in fear of defeat, or change, or failure. I will not hold back. I will unwrap my courage, and wield it like a sword.
This year, I will live life solely for me. This year, I will unravel my soul as much as I am able. This year, I start anew.
This year, I will be my own oracle of what is to come, and I promise highs and lows and love and laughter and even my share of tears. But in the end, they will all have their place, and they will all be good things.
Here's to 2010. May it see me be better than I ever was.
1:21:00 PM
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